Today we have a special treat. I’m very pleased to bring you a guest post from Diana, who hails from Minneapolis. Diana hooked-up with me last summer on a blog that was “the beginnings” of chipur. We’ve communicated since that time. I know you’ll find her insight valuable, and it could only come from someone who’s been there and back. Welcome Diana!
One Step at a Time – Jordin Sparks
When you can’t wait any longer
But there’s no end in sight
When you need to find the strength
It’s the faith that makes you stronger
The only way we get there
Is one step at a time
Take one step at a time
There’s no need to rush
It’s like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It’s gonna happen and it’s
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time
Living life with a brain disorder is incredibly challenging for all of us who suffer….the incredible amount of courage it takes to face the day at times, to suit up and show up.
I have lived with anxiety for as long as I can remember and I became an incredibly talented actresss, I did not want everyone to think I was weak (and yet I was the absolute opposite) so I kept it to myself and lived life however I could. For me that led to a long and loving relationship with alcohol…I needed it to live, to function, to breathe (actually this was an illusion, but at the time I felt it with every ounce of my being) I turned 40 this year and came to the realization that it indeed was NOT working for me…wow talk about an about face…..what was I to do and how was I going to live??? I came to realize that stubbornness is not a good quality and by holding on to that belief for so long, I did a lot of damage to me.
We cannot change that which we don’t acknowledge and even though change is hard for us, doing the same thing over and over again does lead to insanity. I would love to change the past but I cannot, only take action to change the future. I know many of you are in the same place……why can’t I just be normal? Why is life so challenging? Nothing is ever going to change? And you know what……what is normal…..life is meant for growth and no nothing is ever going to change if I/we don’t change it. I want the instant cure, I don’t want to step out of my comfort zone and I certainly want to be normal.
But life is a race and not a sprint….for me I have started to do one thing that will make my life more bearable each day……exercise, talk to a friend, pray, meditate, do something for someone else, basically get out of my head…which can be a dangerous place to be. Is it easy? No. Do I feel better? Yes. Each of us is responsible for our life….yeah I know…I wish it were not true! But by taking one small step we start to go from here to there……and with each step we get a little closer to there…..and one day we’ll get there…can’t wait to see you there!
If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a thousand times – I want to hear from you! And I’d love to feature what you have to say on chipur. Thanks so much for sharing with us, Diana. So how ’bout some comments on Diana’s post?